Wednesday, January 11, 2006

Work It!

Don't wanna wait til tomorrow,
Why put it off another day?

One more walk through problems,
Built up, and stand in our way...ah

One step ahead, one step behind me
Now you gotta run to get even

Make future plans, don'?t dream about yesterday, hey
C'mon turn, turn this thing around

Right now, hey
It's your tomorrow
Right now,
C'mon,it'?s everything
Right now,
Catch a magic moment, do it
Right here and now
It means everything

(Right Now by Van Halen)

With a 1/2 Marathon with my sister Heather (Myrtle Beach 1/2 Marathon) less than 6 weeks away and a Half Ironman (to be announced after this weekend) in my long term plans, I realized this weekend that the "holiday slacking" was over. So I confessed to my slacking to Coach Debi, asked for some adjustments to my workout schedule to keep me "on track" and got serious.

This week I have been keeping an eye on my food intake and getting back to the daily workouts in earnest. After just 2 days, Tanita has been very kind in acknowleging that I have been getting all my water, watching my food and working out. I'm glad "she" is in a good mood this week but I know she is prone to serious "mood swing". If you don't believe me, ask Boulder.

Monday was a light day with Core exercises early in the AM (Earlier than the birds but not earlier than Nancy)

Last night I worked "hard" in spin class. We did a mock "criterion Race" which was 3 laps of 6 minute progressive climbs followed by a 2 minute "downhill" sprint and then 2 minute of recovery. I gave it everything I had in that class, knowing that the only thing I had to do after class was go home, eat dinner, give myself a shot and relax. When Jim and I finally did get home, I felt that "exhaustion" that I covet and I soaked in the "Wow, you worked hard today in class" compliments from Jim. He is much faster and stronger than I am in cycling and sports in general and isn't quick to hand out the compliments in the workout world unless you earn them!

So EARLY this morning, I found myself stumbling out of bed to get to the gym before work since we are having friends over for dinner tonight. By 6AM I was on the treadmill, doing my 2:1 Run/Walk intervals and shuffling my I-Pod like a mad woman to find the most motivating, pulse-pumping tunes I could to keep my pace up. By the end of the 45 minutes I was covered in sweat, face red and had covered 5K. There was a time when 5K took 33 minutes ... I look forward to that again.

I have found lately that focusing on this year's season is helping me focus alot less on my upcoming biopsy and my monthly appointment with Dr. Butler. I'm sure thousand of other cancer survivors have gone through what I am going through this week - Doubts creep in, along with anxiety and suddenly every new thing makes me wonder "Is it back?" "Did we miss some of it and it has spread?"

With 20 weeks of Chemo left, I have to find faith and courage in the knowledge that I am doing everything I can and that I can't worry about what I don't know yet. I have to Live STRONG now and not dwell on what "might or might not be"

Besides, I have to make dinner tonight ... LOL... and Gloria Childs, I am not!

Live STRONG, Right Now!


surferchickHG said...

isn't it julia childs?

anyways, i too have realized that i better start training now, and prevent another foot injury like last year. I'm on day #3 of running....MY LEGS HURT!!!

i miss you sister, we have a lot to catch up on. Did you hear we bought a house? i'm not sure that we will be moved in by the marathon, so we will probably all stay here that weekend since it's right near the pelican field. but atleast you will get to see it! i can't wait! 37 days to train...


Holly said...

It is Julia Childs ... LOL!

I'll call you this weekend Sister! Congrats on the HOUSE! How exciting!

XF-15DCC said...

I like your count down of weeks left on your interferon..Are you keeping it?

Knew it was Van Halen after the first line \m/

Let me wotk on my resumes, 101 days left until I retire!

Always cheering for you


Ellie said...

I didn't know about the Most Inspirational Blog contest but it would have been a no-brainer to vote for yours... all along, but today's post hit me as more and more inspiring as I read it. Your attitude is one we are all learning from.

Lora said...

My fingers n toes are all crossed for ya girl!!

it's only fuel said...

Oh my goodness...Julia is turning in her grave right now!

You're very motivating, good job at the gym today! 6am is just an ugly time of the morning and I wish I could do that to myself, perhaps if I read more of your posts, it will get me out of bed too:D

GatorJamie said...

Thanks for the daily dose of motivation!

Keep us posted on the test results, 'kay? I know it's personal biz, but you know we are all out here ready to support you.

Also - you might appreciate this: I was at my derm's yesterday (Fran Rotter) for my 6-month check, and I told her how I knew of someone who was being treated for Stage 3, was on interferon, yet (with her doctor's clearance), finished the Marine Corps Marathon - within the cutoff no less!

Dr. Rotter's jaw nearly hit the floor. She said that she'd never heard of anyone being able to do anything like that while on interferon - too wiped out. I told her that it seemed that you had your days, but that you just persevered. She was speechless.

That you, Holly, confounding the medical establishment, and living proof of the power of positive thinking. Keep it up, grrl!