Why put it off another day?
One more walk through problems,
Built up, and stand in our way...ah
One step ahead, one step behind me
Now you gotta run to get even
Make future plans, don'?t dream about yesterday, hey
C'mon turn, turn this thing around
Right now, hey
It's your tomorrow
Catch a magic moment, do it
Right here and now
It means everything
(Right Now by Van Halen)
With a 1/2 Marathon with my sister Heather (Myrtle Beach 1/2 Marathon) less than 6 weeks away and a Half Ironman (to be announced after this weekend) in my long term plans, I realized this weekend that the "holiday slacking" was over. So I confessed to my slacking to Coach Debi, asked for some adjustments to my workout schedule to keep me "on track" and got serious.
This week I have been keeping an eye on my food intake and getting back to the daily workouts in earnest. After just 2 days, Tanita has been very kind in acknowleging that I have been getting all my water, watching my food and working out. I'm glad "she" is in a good mood this week but I know she is prone to serious "mood swing". If you don't believe me, ask Boulder.
Monday was a light day with Core exercises early in the AM (Earlier than the birds but not earlier than Nancy)
Last night I worked "hard" in spin class. We did a mock "criterion Race" which was 3 laps of 6 minute progressive climbs followed by a 2 minute "downhill" sprint and then 2 minute of recovery. I gave it everything I had in that class, knowing that the only thing I had to do after class was go home, eat dinner, give myself a shot and relax. When Jim and I finally did get home, I felt that "exhaustion" that I covet and I soaked in the "Wow, you worked hard today in class" compliments from Jim. He is much faster and stronger than I am in cycling and sports in general and isn't quick to hand out the compliments in the workout world unless you earn them!
So EARLY this morning, I found myself stumbling out of bed to get to the gym before work since we are having friends over for dinner tonight. By 6AM I was on the treadmill, doing my 2:1 Run/Walk intervals and shuffling my I-Pod like a mad woman to find the most motivating, pulse-pumping tunes I could to keep my pace up. By the end of the 45 minutes I was covered in sweat, face red and had covered 5K.
I have found lately that focusing on this year's season is helping me focus alot less on my upcoming biopsy and my monthly appointment with Dr. Butler. I'm sure thousand of other cancer survivors have gone through what I am going through this week - Doubts creep in, along with anxiety and suddenly every new thing makes me wonder "Is it back?" "Did we miss some of it and it has spread?"
With 20 weeks of Chemo left, I have to find faith and courage in the knowledge that I am doing everything I can and that I can't worry about what I don't know yet. I have to Live STRONG now and not dwell on what "might or might not be"
Besides, I have to make dinner tonight ... LOL... and Gloria Childs, I am not!
Live STRONG, Right Now!